I am not being complacent, i am not slacking.. dance is my passion. i work hard to get watever i want... i play hard to get and i am disappointed in myself too. sorry teachers and seniors i didnt do my best for syf. i was in a confused emotion during audition... the faces were unfamiliar and i cnt do it without u all. shaz,dinah,shaan,cheeyang,ramnah,etc... all those who helped me loads and loads. i think no one can understand. ;(( anw, friday,7 nov is the LAST DAY OF BRIDGING PRORAMME...YAY! dance audition and was totally slack. after that went for the BREATHE thingy for scp. its lik fun cos i zi high! hahas i want photos from LIXUAN soon! hahas..after the event, went marina square for dinner then train-ed home with syahida... the rest went diff way cos we tot they going take mrt. opps. (extra) hahs! but we reach lik so much faster than them (obviously).. went home sis go ask me buy birthday cake for her bf. asshole bitch slut mf!!!! nvm..thx jomin and kelly for bringing the money for me... they reach damn late ;DD went home with them talked to them and blahblah blah.. surprise jun with the cake -.- he got same birth day as sherweine!!! ohhhh~~
SATURDAY woke up ard 10.. played abit of djmax then watch miss no good! i watch until i forget the timing and i was late for the debrief abt my work...nvm. ate lunch at ahma hse and then chion down to ms for the debrief.. omgg i almost fell asleep man! i wrote 17 pages of notes. 1 page on regulation and 16 page on their menu ingredients...sian=/ met jin after tht and played arcade walk here walk there then ran to mrt sation. took the same train as mama but didnt manage to find her on the train-.- hahas went tm after that and watch the james bond show.. kinda boring cos the story quite draggy-.- went 800plus there and eat porridge saw moses. woo he is wearing contacts ;DD after dinner went home... tmr will be brisk walk with family!!!
Happy Birthday to Sherweine and Jun!!!
will anyone noe how i feel? the 3 things everyone have in life, at least 2/3 of it should be nice. but for me? i am = nothing. family, now without my dad i really dunno how i cn tahan for this 3 years. i have nvr sense the love from a father before and really wanna feel it. it not good to noe who ur parents are and they treat u like a toy. for my mum, she keep treating us like a toy, she thinks tht we cn be push ard,firstly if she cant handle us, why not put us in the orphanage since we are holding u back... u keep blaming and throwing anger on us and keep pushing us here and there. did u ever spare a thought for us? did u? i noe u keep sayin we shld spare more thought but hello, we are still children we need our parents guidance and love and care. but we get nth. for my elder sis, she is ignoring me. she have her bf and therefore, she WILL BLOODY HELL NOT COMMUNICATE WITH ME. she will not be sharing the same room anymore and she keep things from me. i must alw go find out myself. its been so long since i spoke to her. ;(( i feel super lousy now. who cn i tell all my stuff to? who? friends, everyone should have a good one. but i dun.. i have this very good friend but she changed. she mix ard with ppl who are not as good and she even speak to me abt cigrattes. i hate it. now i cn trust no one but myself and of cos my diary... the feelin really suck. friends = useless to me noe. lucky i got a few whom i knew last year during campteen. they are alw there for me. what abt those who i am close to? now, i am walkin all alone.. down the road.. Relationship, totally not gettin into one right now... things are really diff for me now, i must get use to it. things change dun they? what shld i do... i am askin myself repeatedly.. i am not tht happy as i look...
