Friday, August 08, 2008
o8.08.08a nice date today, but not a nice day for me.
Cross country today and woke up 5 in the morning to go school. settle some stuff aand then went to east coast park. check everything and it was okay. brought psl to their check points. aww shermain we will go out one fine day ;D rush back to the assemble areaa for escort. the race for sec 1 start. then after a few min, they came back -.- they were ushered to the wrong route. wthh~ sec2 race was okay but jiaxian and darshini suppose to get top 10 but they were ushered by other school wrongly. omgg. me and ms haani was like walking ard the 3.5 route to check if everyone was okay and the checkpoints. super tired but i had fun talking with her. then after all the raaace, inter class started their cheer and then follow up by the sports captain lwi grp! they were great. then was tag performance and then other event! congrats to my darlings who got like top 10 esp jillian! she was so wanting to get top 10! congraats girl. i love youu! congrats to lyidaaaaa toooo..... happy right! lols. glad u all enjoy urself! maybe i shld be like them, smiling everyday. woo~ mr soh talk to me rachel siewmei at the wrong time. everyone is having fun and we are like having small meeting -.- lucky today not really alot of things happen.sorry escort team if i said bad things abt u all. i noe u all helped alot. thanks ;)) esp jomin and aqil! after the whole event end, went back to sch alone to help with stuff. thx shitou, zaki,victor and xinhui cos they are the only ones who came back school -.- i dunno whaat happened to the logistic grp who is suppose to go back sch -.- seriously wth~ No one ask me out and i got no one to ask out so went back home instead. freaking loner my god. i hate this feeling but maybe its self denial tht makes me think that is not i am a loner is just tht i feeli lik being loner. Now i see that i dun really have true friends who are really there for me. who noes how i feel? who noes me well? who noes what happened to me? what will ppl say?? i dunno i am veh confuse, my feelings are like mixed up and i just dunno whoto trust and who to tell all my stuff. today on the trip home alone, walking pass other school students goin out with their friends its like so happy, their faces are lik full of happiness and enthuness to go out tgt. as for me, i am just wandering where to go and in the end walked back home aalone. i heard of this sayin, " in order to have friends, you must be one" i am trying to be one and i have been treating all my friends so nicely, better than my family members, at the state when i thought i got friends, i will lose them. why? what is wrong with me? what have i done wrong? what did i do to them? all i wan is jus a smile from their faces, i just want happiness. "everyone got their limits" one day i will just blow up, i cant take it anymore, why am i in this situation? u may be laughing at me, go ahead... i just dunno la. one day i may just be in woodbridge. -.- went home and luckily my sis is at home. oh yes i miss her like hell lot. but the only thing we alw do is she scold me and then we quarrel?! maybe she is old and have her own life to leaad i cnt alq rely on her right? shes the only one who is alw there for me... we watch devil beside you, cook noodle, lame-ing on the show. hahas its nice with her ;D went out of hse with her. she went out aand i gor cut hair. yay my hair is not veh curly ler and i can let down my hair!! wooo.. went grandmama hse. aate durian, then went hyper with my aunt. she is sooo nice to me ;DD i just got happy when i talk to her. watch abit of olympics and then went home.
tmr is ndp performance ler.. so excited la!!! whoosh! after tht i am totally free and got more time to study ler!!!
its just so haard to understand myself...
