Monday, August 25, 2008
sunday, i am so happy cause i finally get to talk to my mum NICELY. guess that what she says is true. i shld have listen to her earlier so i wun feel so hurt now. chiong-ing ss project ytd night till 5am in the morning. din finish. thanks mf for helping ;DD
school is just nothing to me now. i dun care what others think of me and i dun even care abt my class even more. if life could be shorter why not? why must we be here being tortured every single day. sorry for those friends who are always there for me cause i think i let u all down. the time when i feel lik giving up, u all cheered me up. i love u all! maybe i am gonna transfer school and is not fake. still processing high chance is a no-no to the other schh ;(( so what if i achieve so many cip hrs, cca points, dance achievements, wht can they do? exchange my life with other stuff??? this is not an emo post, it is truly how i feel now. i feel very isolated. how i wish i can just disappear from this frustrating, complicated world. so many things to do but so little time. i am still hanging on cause of the lil hoope my friend pin on me but eventually one day, if i fall, everythin will come to an end.
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things are just gonna get better if i let go...
Monday, August 18, 2008
i keep thinking about what is happening to me and i realise that i dont know who i really am anymore. i du
n even know what i am really doing things for. is my decision right? i dunno perhaps i am just paranoid. But screaming aand getting bad tempered, keep scolding frens isnt the yuanyuan i reaally know. what am i? who am i? why am i living in this world of torturee?? is this faate? is this suppose to be me?? i wan to be my oldself but how can i be when i dun even know myself well?? well i guess i just feel lik bloggin abt this, i will be in a veh bad mood for the next few days so pls dun piss me off. nights.
Saturday, August 16, 2008
long day today!
morning woke up went tution. lols damn funny, me and my tution teacher do wrong unit for test! lols -.- after tution, went for lunch at tm with mum and both sis. ate
pastamania!!! weeee...went buy my school shoe aand then NTUC!!! bought things tht we gonna cook tmr for lunch! curry ~~ ;D went home to study after that.. trying to think how to design the cereal box for liuying... zzzz dunno wth we do tht for though but i think its kinda cool ;p met
huiying,sab,sherry,ledia at 6 at haangten tm inter. was alittle late ;((( bought our cargo pants and yay!!!!!we settled our costum in just two days ;) haahahs! now the only thing to prepare is our dance steps!! so damn nervous for dance. getting excited over it. wooohooo~ met mum,sanyi at
BHG then we head down to ramen ten and eat. the food there is so called "artificial". jin ate the sushi and its lik made from flour??? the only nice thing is the drink. the ramen was superr spicy and my idiiot sis ordered and cnt finishh. muahahah~~ went cs to shop and i bought my
GREEN ear piece ler!!! went home after tht. and yess! i got a new big screen tv ;D weird thing is, they forget to deliver the control and the tv cabel so i still cnt watch yet. lols can??? hoho! today had been a nice day for me.! going to chiong my design! byebye and nights!!
if only everyday is today, how great could it be??
Friday, August 15, 2008
AMATH TEST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I FREAKING SCREWED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I GOT MENTAL BLOCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!todaay is finallyy
FRIDAY!! its aka
7 yue 15 hao. that means its the half month of ghost festival;full moon and my grandmaaa cookedd delicious food ;DDD today lessons damn slack. first period liuying not heree!!!! yay! then second period was eng, miss ang so poor thing alw kena bully from our class ppl. 3rd peripd was phy and we got to go recess haif an hour earlier then after tht continue lesson agn -.- lols. after tht was amath test. dun talk abt it, i totally flunk it with my stupid braain!! lag like shit. i think i need more rest. i got events to plan and its getting me crazyyy. ahhhh~~ mr ng tot i cry becos ppl make me angry. weirdo. super no mood today, after amath test cried lik no one buisness and i felt quite relax after tht cos its been a long time since i cried. =x after sch no chi remedial so went up dance studio, thx to those who comfort me today ;DD cnt believe sp was one of them. hoho thanks though ;D gerrad didnth come today no instructors so the seniors took over. did warm up and clear up some parts of the daance. hope the dancers will do well for their parts !!!! after dance went to buy teacher's day costume with,
sab,joan,sherry,annabelle,colleen,ledia. met huiying at simei ;D bought our top aldy then went ard looking for cargo pants. ate dinner at ljs first cos some of us were hungry. collen went back first cos she had to go off early. then we headed to tm to look for our pants and accesories. all of us were lik laming la! lols so fun to be with them! then ledia,joan,annabelle went off cos was kinda late by the time we came out tm. so only left, me huiying sab & sherry! sherry is damn funny!! hoho. went sinma to buy glitter spray and then went hang ten!!! yesssss we found our cargo pants! kinda nice. its like 50% sales lor ;D so today only spent
$39.5 on costume. tmr they meeting to collect the pants. thanks man first time we buy costume lik in 3 hrs time ??? wooooo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~went back home after tht. super tired la today!! gonna rest ler. nights ppl!
you can leave with out me...
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
monday, school holiday.
anw i checked who is the person who tagged on my blog. thanks to gw and mf ;DD hahas ohh the person better own up or smth bad will happen. whoosh! anw, went out on monday with a few of my veh cool frens. just love them man! met kristee first then we slowly walk to TM. omgosh! there is so many ppl there tht we dunno. anw first time watch movie with such a big grp. 20 plus ppl almost 30 ;p hahas. watched money not enough 2 and i tell u, it SUCKS! I almost fell asleep in there and i bloody sit down there for 2 hrs. the show was crappy lucky tickets was sold only$6. lols went back grandma hse after tht. Just cnt describe how much fun i had. talked on the phone with lina before watching superband!!! woo i LOVE lina! kristee and suying too!
tuesday,
today didnt haave mood to talk in class and u noe, i dun like ppl in my class. recess went *. its nice toking to her. oh i jus cnt stand **** attitude (dont assume). now i think i hate her more... maybe becos she is ****??? i dunno. but nvm its my prob to lik or hate someone so dun care abt me. thanks to, hy,mf,edna, gw and ppl who comfort me. especially i wanna thank my sis! i was so touched when she tagged on my blog. i love her ;DD woo~~ dance was alright today, same routine though >) tmr will be the sec1 xcountry rerun, had everything planned properly, but will it succeed?? i dunno. tmr is dance photoshoot too. oh my. i am goin to get crazy!!!ahhh~~ss test sucks today, i dunno what was i writing. i hope i cn passs!!! alamak. goin to study my hist now !good night people!!!
i just cnt understand why people will wanna act thaat wayy.....
Sunday, August 10, 2008
i seriously
hate losers who dun tag with names, if u are so brave to write those kind of comment, can u be brave enough to write ur naame when u tag?? humji kia.
life is still goin on. yesterday was
ndp celebration. i got to admit that i will miss every one there esp sheryl! i love her to the max. she helped us alot and i regret shouting at her when its not her fault. =( aanw after ndp, went outside marina sqaure mac. sat at the grass patch n talk awhile. saw TRACY my long lost camp fren. i fcuking miss her to the core!!! i love u girl happy birthday ;D
woke up 12 plus today. ate lunch then started my work. in the end went online and talk to benny and others till veh late and only read a little on hitler. hais. din go to the park cos my hair cnt be tied up =(( anw, celebrated 4th aunt bdae ;D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST 4TH AUNT.!!
going to study ler, maybe goin out with lena they all for a movie. i guess they are the best ;D i love them! oh tmr is a holiday!! enjoy the break people ;D weeeee~
trying to start anew...
Friday, August 08, 2008
o8.08.08a nice date today, but not a nice day for me.
Cross country today and woke up 5 in the morning to go school. settle some stuff aand then went to east coast park. check everything and it was okay. brought psl to their check points. aww shermain we will go out one fine day ;D rush back to the assemble areaa for escort. the race for sec 1 start. then after a few min, they came back -.- they were ushered to the wrong route. wthh~ sec2 race was okay but jiaxian and darshini suppose to get top 10 but they were ushered by other school wrongly. omgg. me and ms haani was like walking ard the 3.5 route to check if everyone was okay and the checkpoints. super tired but i had fun talking with her. then after all the raaace, inter class started their cheer and then follow up by the sports captain lwi grp! they were great. then was tag performance and then other event! congrats to my darlings who got like top 10 esp jillian! she was so wanting to get top 10! congraats girl. i love youu! congrats to lyidaaaaa toooo..... happy right! lols. glad u all enjoy urself! maybe i shld be like them, smiling everyday. woo~ mr soh talk to me rachel siewmei at the wrong time. everyone is having fun and we are like having small meeting -.- lucky today not really alot of things happen.sorry escort team if i said bad things abt u all. i noe u all helped alot. thanks ;)) esp jomin and aqil! after the whole event end, went back to sch alone to help with stuff. thx shitou, zaki,victor and xinhui cos they are the only ones who came back school -.- i dunno whaat happened to the logistic grp who is suppose to go back sch -.- seriously wth~ No one ask me out and i got no one to ask out so went back home instead. freaking loner my god. i hate this feeling but maybe its self denial tht makes me think that is not i am a loner is just tht i feeli lik being loner. Now i see that i dun really have true friends who are really there for me. who noes how i feel? who noes me well? who noes what happened to me? what will ppl say?? i dunno i am veh confuse, my feelings are like mixed up and i just dunno whoto trust and who to tell all my stuff. today on the trip home alone, walking pass other school students goin out with their friends its like so happy, their faces are lik full of happiness and enthuness to go out tgt. as for me, i am just wandering where to go and in the end walked back home aalone. i heard of this sayin, " in order to have friends, you must be one" i am trying to be one and i have been treating all my friends so nicely, better than my family members, at the state when i thought i got friends, i will lose them. why? what is wrong with me? what have i done wrong? what did i do to them? all i wan is jus a smile from their faces, i just want happiness. "everyone got their limits" one day i will just blow up, i cant take it anymore, why am i in this situation? u may be laughing at me, go ahead... i just dunno la. one day i may just be in woodbridge. -.- went home and luckily my sis is at home. oh yes i miss her like hell lot. but the only thing we alw do is she scold me and then we quarrel?! maybe she is old and have her own life to leaad i cnt alq rely on her right? shes the only one who is alw there for me... we watch devil beside you, cook noodle, lame-ing on the show. hahas its nice with her ;D went out of hse with her. she went out aand i gor cut hair. yay my hair is not veh curly ler and i can let down my hair!! wooo.. went grandmama hse. aate durian, then went hyper with my aunt. she is sooo nice to me ;DD i just got happy when i talk to her. watch abit of olympics and then went home.
tmr is ndp performance ler.. so excited la!!! whoosh! after tht i am totally free and got more time to study ler!!!
its just so haard to understand myself...
Wednesday, August 06, 2008
i promised to blog abt today and i will.
today is the mot dramatic day. during recess, we did retarded stuff and it waas damn embarassing. i caame up a "poem" myself.. hhohoh <> hahas. =DD then paul and syahida fight over smth and then "piang" they topple my mee siam over. hhahas then they need to cleam up -.- rush backk to hist class but in the way we were lik crapping so much. ohh the meesiam kena edna shoe then syahida was lik helping her cleam up in the toilet. i got the pic in my phone but lazy load. ^^ hahas. after school have dance and then went home. bought my waffle and milktea ;D goin piano lesson later. i am so tired, played dj max ytd after i come back home from npd ;) awww ytd was the last prac!!!! omggg... tmr got recky aat east coast ppark. =(( tired sia. need the ic to help me =D lalao!!
i thought i will move on, but i am stuck ;(
